Shoulders and glass debris

 

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You’re not over the hill yet… And I must go, I must go now. (…) Can you hear me? I must go NOW .. (…) Can you..  can you hear me? (…) … go over the hill  

Over the hill of your nude chest ..

Oh .. the angular shoulders .. they are… like carving the void.. in glass debris.. Oh .. please.. keep cutting shapes in the vacuum, you…  arms, neck, trunk, objects lying… lying.

Clear-cut body cut out on a grey ground

Wow.. translucent, cutting statue!

Wow.. luminous carcass…

Wow.. lines of shadows

Clear-clear-clear body

Cut-cut-cut the void

This void you meet..

ow.. beautiful void

That you carve

Forms, forms ..

In the void

Clear

Cut

 

The world.. you made it in glare of glass.. your angular shoulders they are sharp.. really sharp.. as they are able to cut the world.. so.. please, I hope they don’t turn on your.. your triangular chest.. and cut.. cut your own pores… For your skin is so thin and your veins so .. ready to escape.

Oh wow the translucent silk, oh wow the so-thin layer of skin.

Muscles get contracted, Ridges get vertiginous!

Oh now, wow, prominent veins… Oh .. so pretty veins

And so close of the air, the pretty, pretty veins.

Veins…. So pretty veins..

bluish.. and purple…

Break out of prison veins…

Break out of prison…

So thin …

So pretty …

But..

So thin…

.. So ..

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Box of medicine’s wind

Again

(Rain- pain- brain- same- taint- drain- lame- sane- blame)

 

 

This is a destroyed box. Rebuilt with stiches. It could be so easily opened again. Black and white rain. It is black outside. White inside. A scary black. An aseptic white. You see scratches from the inside. Somebody is trying to say something from the inside. Someone cries inside. Something inside wants to see light. Wants to see outside. But it is black outside .. so white inside. An aseptic white. Inside, the walls are white. So White. An Aseptic white. But do you see the trees growing on the hospital aseptic white walls? See them. You don’t see trees? I can assure you there are trees. Yes, they are trees. Somebody, someone, something wants to show you the trees on the white wall. The so white wall. This aseptic white wall. Show them with cracks. Cracks in light.

 

Medicine, tree roots and drooping leaves. The trembling iron forest advances like foam. Nebulous medicine, covered, so covered by clouds, so many clouds. Leaves, drooping leaves, pills, nebulous and sharpened leaves. Pills, knifes. Fog has entered. Fog is invasive. Pills, knifes. The leaves. Pills. The falling leaves have become opaque. No more reflection on the iron trees of pills nebulous and sharpened forest- dark in its middle. There are childish drawings inside the black and white rain pain. One bluish tree, one brown. Two colours torn to black. Cause it was so white inside. An aseptic white. And somebody, someone, something is trying to show you the trees. Trees made of scratches with painting, and pain. Black and white rain.

 

No precision, no cleanliness, no mediation. This is a heart exposed. Closed, shut in a box. Made of black, scary black, of white, aseptic white. Of medicine, trees and cracks in light. Somebody, someone, something tries to make enter light in branching, tries to make it spread on the ceiling.

How would you feel, putting your head in that winding place?  Please, please, if you do put your head in that place, please just draw the trees again.

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A twig and a cutter

 

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Shaken Alterable lame Ephemeral loose Breakable low Destructible hail Unstable frail Perishable Precarious Provisional Tenuous Succinct Slender Stain Suffering Temporary Sensitive Tender Flying Volatile

 

Fragile.

 

You.

 

You are a fibre, a thread, a strand tendril string cable cord conducting wire, made incandescent by an electric current. You are my anorexic twig, so fine that you disappear, little flame led by the current. I would like to dig you, dig you in the paper, increase your thickness. So people can touch you, feel you.

I want to dig you. I am trying. I love you. I’ll dig you.

 

Dig you. Breach breeze crevasse crack

 

Force

Frame

Solidity

Massive

Palpable object

You stand in a vacuum

You slash the landscape

With your torn, living, mysterious, so strong aspect.

 

 

In the middle of great boulevards

A little girl snuggles up against the gigantic twig

But she is too thin, that twig

I think, maybe, it’s possible that its shoulders grow larger,

And I think, maybe, it would be cool if large arms could clap her, at last.

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Border line.

 

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Chronic feelings of emptiness Difficulty managing anger Reduced capacity to foresee the consequences of its actions Perturbation of identity (questioning of certain projects or feelings, questioning oneself, difficulties in analyzing one's feelings) Tendency to idealize and then devalue the other Instability in interpersonal relationships Unrestrained efforts to avoid abandonment (excessive fear of breaks, remoteness) Dissociative symptoms and a persecutory ideation (feeling out of one's body, being a victim of a conspiracy) Impulsive, dangerous, self-mutilating behaviors (binge eating, gambling, alcohol or drug abuse) Suicidal thoughts and gestures

 

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Trembling

 

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Antenna

Shutters

Threshold

of the door

Pavement

Electric wire

Small post

Bench

Staircase

Small portal

Walls

 

All those words, they keep standing out, under the fleet, under the wind

 

All the objects, they are talking constantly, about their so many broken links

 

All the lines, they keep stretching their hands, see?

 

All the angles, they never stop dancing in a belly.

 

And all of me…

 

 

 

I’ ve got a stomach ache.

 

 

.. They are dancing

dancing slowly

slowly

slow-ly

in my naked naked love

 

No more barrage. It s the overflow. Fire flows flows

on my naked naked love

 

There is an incendiary in a belly.

 

There is a belly full

full

of trembling objects

In full swing

Melancholy

 

Everywhere

Objects breath my own air.

 

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The blue house

Soko

 

 

 

I did nothing because life. The world is a Gruyere it makes me too afraid.

Let us go in a blue house made with Russian scarfs,

In the fields and the seabed by way of sky.

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Convulsive beauty

 

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It goes away

Blood and stuff

It goes away

 

It goes inside

Brambles and stuff

It goes inside

 

Fluxes snakes fluid veins.

 

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Above us

 

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Above us, there is a sad, dejected, depressed, despondent, disconsolate, dismal, dispirited, down in the dumps, downcast, downhearted, fed up, gloomy, low, melancholic, moody, unhappy and woebegone blue. Azure, beryl, blue-grey, blue-green, cerulean, cobalt, indigo, navy, royal, sapphire, and teal, turquoise,

ultramarine.

Above us.

I feel drowned.

 

Around us, people might look livid, pearly, smoky, stone, like ash, granite and iron.

Around us.

 

Under us, threat of an ebony background, hopeless, bleak, doleful, funereal, mournful, dirty, enraged, fierce, menacing, sullen, sullen and sour floor.  

Under us.

 

Blue, grey and black …

Blue… grey and …

black

… Blue … grey … and … black …

I need contrasts.

 

I need colours. Cause this is all dreary… all dreary…

 

Oh!

But….

your cheeks!!

They are red! Blush, carmine, coral, crimson, bloody, bittersweet, sanguine, vermilion.

You’re burning, ablaze, afire, aflame, alight, raging, feverish, embarrassed, flushed!!!!!!

 

Your cheeks, they are red!!

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Grandfather in an elevator

 

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An elevator goes up, goes up, goes up

Rises, ascends, towers,

Up

 

In the elevator I see my grandfather. He gives me flowers.

Buttons bustle. Faded, dissolve, evanish, evaporate, dwindle, die out, abate, decline, deteriorate, diminish, disperse, dissolve, etiolate, evanish, languish, perish. Disappearance keeps on going. Run away, depart secretly, decamp, break, clear out, cut and run, dog it, duck out, escape. Never stops. Whiten, blench, decolorize, fade, and grow pale, wash out, peroxide. I can see it. Loose colour, brightness. This is so fluid. Cause injury, loss, contaminate, corrode, crack, disfigure, disintegrate, dismantle, lacerate, maltreat, ravage, scathe, scorch, and scratch, smash.

 

An elevator goes down, goes down, and goes down.

Sinks, declines, couches, drops,

slumps, caves in, falls,

digs, drowns,

Down

 

Up and down

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Mean trains

 

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See,

 

You take a lot of trains without any destination. And the locomotives of these trains make a lot of smoke. And this smoke disappears; it disintegrates itself and scatters in the air. And the air is there, always around you, taunting you. He taunts you by telling you: you see I am all the smoke of spirit of the whole planet. I am all that you wanted to say and that evaporated.

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Haemorrhage

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Inertia amnesia Wicked Mutilated nervousness net cold Impassive disorder incapacity Whispering voluble vaguely futile Disabled Stunned Dull murmur tormented wear Gully Polish Las Rictus of pride Erasures Vehemence Thunderous Harassed hybrid medusa Redhead Striped Dizzy Displeased Hunted cornered bucolic Taunt Browser mocker Staggering Failing Sinuosity Thieves affected nonchalance ingenuous irremediable Mistake evasive Mad Exceeded Slumped Overwhelmed Stealth Fantasy Intact Offered to the invisible chandelier Stolen Shabby Stunned radiant foolish Inextinguishable deleterious Obole prestige Reinforced Suffering flesh refugee Browse Antiquated upholstered Impregnated His pale skin floated on his destroyed face Deformity Jolting Flickering They put their fatigue on the table Meteorite Furrow Tensions Releases Printed virtuoso Stridence Clamped vice Split Close on it To charge his eyes with promises lips sway to break up Under the statue he sees the little girl Effervescence that waves the streets fever Be a prey to Increase Distant Deflagration Parentheses assault Silhouette numbed of the sun fall asleep quietude convoy Disaster Snatch get drunk bury Incandescence inexhaustible Fierce Gourmet Watch To open Whistles to bark These stripped bodies Detach Pale stains that stood out against the gray background I dwelt my gaze on these already desecrated flesh robust ruthless Flood Scroll I deployed my theater of shadows elongate Ample stretched sheet saddle rowdy Pyramid of hair and limbs Disarticulated Wick escaped from his chignon Dislocated doll Bounced Submit to his desire hilarity obscene With each shake nausea Stunned eyebrow Rubber woman Wash the insult Bulky guilty tortured Riffle Prohibited low dry Limpid blindly Populated by whispers In balance on the wire tender protect break insensitive Anger bite fierce Cover Scrape at the barbed wire of an enclosure of silence taciturn tyranny hail Stammering of life Snatch breach Sky without threats Enlace insolent darken Rustling inclined Serious air Persecutors Jostle precipitate car Slam Rafles twist enclave puppet Vociferations Odious Lead Stormy area Chiseled partner in crime triumphant aquiline hooked Disarray confined Childish despise to desire Too precise visions assailed him The salient veins Appease imposing shady inflexible Upset Emotion respondent Rarefied Support His big bed glazed fearful Clenched fists Force Poor The freshness of his clear eyes on him Like a little girl lost livid hang on Her eyes wander, she almost delirious Take refuge in total silence Absent anxiety contracted Agitated with whispers Herbs waving Cats in marauding deeply injury presence Shake Insisting He traces around him a circle of silence Stolen Gray muddy carpet greyish Stubborn swim Night sobbed vibrate Black rails that spin cohort wretched hollow echo crack wool snow curtain flesh root Uprooted shadows Lakes of nudity tear enclave saturated indelible curve Snatch Straightened Scaled vibrate Black arrow on the white sky fire pleated elusive Squandered tormented Liquefied liquidate scattered Teenage river The iron applied its torso to the inflamed mud of the forge The thin night of metal Dark side of the river He feels the thrust of his journey into his body Closed place Wreck Tree in the unfailing cold indolent Splints Impregnable abrupt Thin beauty shaken Shivering Wobble hilarious The interlacing of their fingers Squeak search Panting bloody Monkeys pin herd reprise skin metallic Flashed electricity Solid shadow Neck cut expire

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